Biscuit Lies

Thursday Jan 24, 2019

12:25pm

Yesterday went very well food and exercise wise. I managed to do 30min of yoga then 45min of Zumba. My total calories for the day were 620. That makes me happy but I found out something last night that rather pissed me off.

Years ago (2005 to be exact), I read this ana blog that had a recipe for these diet biscuits. They are super simple, 1c flour, 1c unsweetened apple sauce, 1TBSP of baking powder, mix and bake. She said that one of these had only 46 calories in it. So I have been making them for years, counting one as 50cals. Last night I decided I wanted to be very precise and so I looked up the ingredients and added it all together…..600 calories for the whole batch which is about 150-200cals for 1, not 50. I feel cheated. I feel dumb. I should have checked myself. Maybe she was using a different kind of flour? End result is that my beloved biscuits are no longer the option they were. 1 piece of bread has less calories, so why make the biscuits. I honestly feel sad about this, I love those damned things. I would often put mustard and mushrooms, or salsa and mushrooms (I eat mushrooms with most everything) in the batter and that made the best meal. But 600 is way too high. Fucking hell, and fucking Lardass for not checking sooner.

Was very proud of my workouts last night. I really didn’t want to do my yoga, like really really. One close look in the mirror got me motivated to get downstairs and I nailed my yoga, but when it was done I didn’t feel like I had sweat enough so I did my Zumba and ended up having a much longer workout. Way to go fatty! It’s good to remember how accomplished I feel when I work out on a day that I don’t feel like it, like I have overcome something.

Will have to be careful tonight. My weight this morning was 241lbs. That is 10lbs down in 2 days, so I know its water and I also know I am likely to gain today no matter what I do (stupid water weight). I am telling myself its ok, you know 10lbs in 48 hrs. isn’t real fat loss, as long as I don’t go back to 250 its ok, but I know that I will be disappointed with myself tomorrow if there is no loss. I am completely unreasonable.

Busy at work today, I am not enjoying my job lately. There will be a new girl coming into my office and that will change the dynamics of my office. Currently it’s just me and C, she is awesome. I really look up to her, she is very compassionate and kind. We have had it lovely just the two of us and now we have this other girl coming and our office won’t be the same. I don’t do well with change and really loved my office with just us. We knew it was coming and this girl is supposed to be helping me (that’s great), but still, I will mourn our lovely office space. I do need some help though, I have a bigger workload than any other girls on my floor and I am too old and senior for that. Shouldn’t my workload be slowing down? It’s been 16 years and they just keep adding to my plate. At least I have a job and I ought to quit bitching.  

Ok, I have some work to do, lives to save and all that. Thanks for reading and wish me luck in not eating the Doritos that are currently in my pantry (kids thought they were being nice getting me chips, sweet stupid boys, I love them).